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Maybe there is something in myself that I need to let out but too bad, I can’t find the right words to express my feelings. Have you ever feel that you’re not happy and not sad as well? I just feel so neutral today.  I just don’t know what to say, running out of words.

For now, I don’t need someone. I want a space. I want to travel anywhere just to endure the pain that people gave me. Everything happens for a reason. I know God has a better plan for me. He’s the only one that I trust. This would help me to become a better and stronger person. If a person doesn’t see my worth, it’s okay It’s not my lost.

Love is patient and kind. Love never gives up: and its faith, hope and patience never fail. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Father God, sometimes being single can be so lonely, so painful. Seeing people in pairs laughing and having fun, makes me feel even more alone and different.

Lord, please comfort me in these times. Help me to deal with my feelings and thoughts in an appropriate way. Help me to remember to work hard on myself, so that i will be whole and mature when You bring the right person into my life.

Teach me about love, your love, and how to speak the truth in love. Teach me to choose a mate You would have for me. Help me to recognize the qualities You would have me look for in a mate. Reveal to me that the choice of a mate is not be based only on emotions and feelings, but that You have very definite guidelines in the bible for me to use.

Thank you for not making things hard for me. You know me better that i know myself. you know the qualities and attributes that are needed in another person that will make me happy in our shared life together and that person happy with me.

Lord, i pray that You will keep my heart from being caught in a hidden trap or danger. And i cast the care of this decision on You.

In Jesus’ name i pray. Amen.

Best Friends.

Someone who will always be there for you. Someone who will be a shoulder to cry on. Someone you can laugh with and laugh at. You both think alike and can finish each other sentences.  Someone who will be completely real with you. Someone who will support you always all ways. Someone who you can trust and rant to. They’re the type of people who you want to stick around. They’re there for you when your heart gets broken into a million of pieces after they warned you about the person and yet they still DON’T tell you “I told you so”. They are worth being around. Friendships lasts longer than your boyfriend or girlfriend. They become so close to you, you can consider them fam[ily].

@ Gladys’ 18th birthday party. fun,  awesome & super tiring night.

I just want to have some time alone. I don’t know what to do anymore it’s like I have it all under control but I really don’t. I need to think things over on my own. My mind is clouded with things I don’t even know about. It keeps on bothering me. It’s quite impossible to stay calm when everything inside me don’t feel like it. No one understands me. Sometimes, i feels like my parents don’t understand me at all.  It just hurts so much when they treat me like this. Like they don’t even want to try to understand me. They think I’m just overacting or whatever. I just want to be alone in a very, very far place and put everything back to normal. I don’t know how I will get through this. My dad’s anger is so unpredictable. Sometimes they’re so unreasonable. Have you ever put yourself on my shoe?  Try to put yourself on my shoe and you’ll understand what i’m feeling. i wanna leave this house so badly. 

I don’t know what worries me so much. Maybe this is some sort of depression or something, but who knows? Do you know the feeling that you’re thinking of a lot of things, and when you’re asked to give just one of those, you don’t know what to say? That’s what I feel, and I think it’s just an emotional breakdown.